Most days I feel like a "bad mom." You know. It's a hard, confusing, often frustrating job and it's easy to feel inadequate and definitely guilty. Comparing myself to other "good moms" is also a favorite pastime. So easy to see others' strengths against my own flaws.
But today we had a good day. We went to a new play place in the morning so it was kind of an adventure but not too stressful because we made our own schedule (and I didn't get lost driving through D.C. for once.) After lunch Poppy napped and I did some little art projects with the girls. Then Hazel watched a show and I actually had some one-on-one time with Ginger (gasp!) We did some puzzles and practiced writing some letters until she was done with me, not the other way around. We made waffles for dinner - simple prep, simple clean-up. After such a long nap, Poppy was in a good mood at bedtime so we were able to read some extra stories.
Once the older girls were in bed, Poppy kept me company doing the dishes and watering the plants. When she got fussy I changed her, swaddled her, and rocked her to sleep, listening to the sounds of a quiet house. No one is sick. No one had a major meltdown, potty accident or power struggle today. It was truly a good day.
I'm far from perfect. My house is pretty messy - still recovering from our trip. I have lots of things I need and want to get done. There are so many things I wish I was doing better. But as I rocked Poppy I thought, my kids are happy. I am happy. I was in the moment. I felt truly content.
I know it could change tomorrow. I'm enjoying this feeling so much because I have it so seldom. I just wanted to write it down.
7 comments:
Love this, so much. That is what it is all about, not the perfect house, etc. I needed to read this tonight. Thanks! Hope tomorrow is at least half as good as today. :)
Nice work! A friend once told me that she liked how in the creation account in Genesis, after God finishes the creation he looks over his work and beholds that it is good then rests. She said she tried to follow that example at the end of each day before she rests. Your post reminded me of that. It can be really empowering to recognize when our work is "good."
Glad you had a good day. Mine was just the opposite which is why I am in front of a computer at this late hour. Too upset to sleep. Thanks for posting this. I truly needed to read it.
Hooray for good mom days! We all need those every once in a while -- makes it easier to get up the next morning. :)
Thanks for sharing. It's nice to know we all are feeling similar feelings. Does Ed work late a lot?
That's perfect and now you can look back and remember that those times do come!!!
Sounds like a great day. You have to enjoy those moments!
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